- Twenty-fourth blood butterfly -

I am. So tired. So dead. I am so tired.

Well. Baiscally, I'm not remembering stuff now, but yesterday was White Day and I had free times to compose three songs without proper music- just the lyrics itself. Its a bit emo or every I don't really care, if you don't please don't read. Kae. The song closest to this is not finish, i have a feeling its lacking-- alot. So. Yay. <3 Shinobinaki and Onii-sama, Onee-sama, Arigatou gozaimasu. =3

[Lyrics] I had a dream- Aishiteru.

*[I had a dream, to be loved forever,
I had a dream that I'll finally found you
And in that dream, I was in your arms.
You were kissing me down my neck
and telling me "I love you" ]

Aishiteru.

And that day came...
When I did found you.
But things were not the same.
I was trying to hold you close.
You were cold like ice.
But you clamied you love me so.

Things are so much difficult
-How do I explain this to you?

*[I had a dream, to be loved forever,
I had a dream that I'll finally found you
And in that dream, I was in your arms.
You were kissing me down my neck
and telling me "I love you" ]

Aishiteru

So slowly, I'll try to let you understand,
So slowly, I'll let you know.
The person in me,
And the goals that I have.
I'll let you know.
Slowly, but definately.

*[I had a dream, to be loved forever,
I had a dream that I'll finally found you
And in that dream, I was in your arms.
You were kissing me down my neck
and telling me "I love you" ]

..Aishiteru.

[Lyrics] Onii-sama, Onee-sama, Arigatou Gozaimasu

*Onii-sama, Onee-sama
arigatou gozaimasu
For being there for me.
Everyday of my life.



When I'm crying,
When i wanna be held
Your warmth, your comfort,
Will always be there.
and you wiped my tears
and you told me
it'll be alright.


Did you know how much that changed my life?


(*Onii-sama, Onee-sama
arigatou gozaimasu
For being there for me.
Everyday of my life.) x 2



When things don't go right
And I'm really pissed
Summoning a masscare
Wishing that you're all dead
You were there.
You changed my life
You told me it was all right.
and that you cared.


(*Onii-sama, Onee-sama
arigatou gozaimasu
For being there for me.
Everyday of my life.) x 2

Onii-sama, Onee-sama,
Arigatou Gozaimasu
For being there for me
When the world was with me
When things started to smile
When things were at their peak
You were still there with me.
You didn't left me alone to smile
by myself.


(*Onii-sama, Onee-sama
arigatou gozaimasu
For being there for me.
Everyday of my life.) x 2



Onii-sama, Onee-sama, arigatou gozaimasu.
For being when I'm happy
For being there when i cry.
For being there for me
Everyday,
Everyday, in my life.

[Lyrics] Shinobinaki (Silent Tears)

I never knew how different I was

until I started crying about it.

I never expected things to be like this

but I can't change it.

And I wished I could.

Did you ever knew that I wished I was the same

like the rest of you?

But its too hard to be like you

Its too hard for me--

I'm suffering silently.

* Shinobinaki,

Silent tears.

I'm crying, I'm crying

but you can't hear me.

Please, I beg you

Don't leave me hanging.

There has been times where things are so

unexpected.

And I just don't know what to do

Its too hard to pursue,

Its too scary to be alone.

And then I went wishing,

That things will be alright.
Things will go as I want.

And it did

But I can't handle the silent pain.

* Shinobinaki,
Silent tears.
I'm crying, I'm crying
but you can't hear me.
Please, I beg you
Don't leave me hanging.

Shinobinaki (silent tears)...

Shinobinaki...

I never knew how different I was

until I started crying about it

I never expected things to be like this

But I can't change it

And I wish I could

And then I went wishing

That things will be alright

Things will go as I want

and it did.

But I can't handle the silent pain.

* Shinobinaki,
Silent tears.
I'm crying, I'm crying
but you can't hear me.
Please, I beg you
Don't leave me hanging.

Shinobinaki... silent tears...

Shinobi...

..naki.

- Twenty-third Blood Butterfly -

Okay, something happened today. =x Worth reading.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Okay, these people are within my school. People involved in this thing: Sec 4s: Rozanne, Me, Anthea, Sec 2s: Rachael, Janice and Samantha.

ÂñÐ®Ë jØ { http://takeiteasy-.blogspot.com/ } says:
now the plot

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
So the sec 4's are quite good friends. And the sec 2s are goof friends

..::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
okay. so Janice sms'ed me from out of the blue to join this conversation.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Me, being nice and what not, thinking like "Okay, how bad can it get" called.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Then then conversation started.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
You know what fangirls are right?

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
They are listed as #1 Scary anime things that should be avoided.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
So these two girls, Rachael and Samantha were talking alot. 75% of it being Anthea. and 20% being Rozanne.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Janice didn't speak most of the time. Probably too shy.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Okay, so i was listening to them and what they think and what they know and what not.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
I, giving them some.. uh. New info or just renewing some info.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
about the people they are ..fanning all over.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Okay, then Janice said like "They wanted you, anthea and rozanne to join the conversation".Okay, so I was.. like.. called anthea and passed the message when she was bathing. She said she would call back.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
And she didn't.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Then Rachael called uh.. ROzanne.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
For some reason or another, she didn't pick up the phone

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
..The moment i started becoming 'afraid' or 'freaked out', but still laughing and stuff.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
I called for anthea for help

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
anthea called Samantha, in the midst of the conversation

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
and whatshername.. Rachael. 'disappeared'

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
okay, this was what the last part of the original conversation went.

.::*[ShiChidea]*::. You won't know if I lied. I won't let you. says:
Rachael: My Antheaa!
Me; What, that's it? aren't you suppose to call like antheaa *Anthea joins conversation* Antthea, oh anthea.
Anthea: Jas?
-Most went silent, some laughing-
Me; Anthea?
Anthea; Jas, I have a proposal for you--
Me; Anthea! They missed you!
-Voice beind, but mostly silent-
Anthea: Nevermind, Jas I have a proposal.
Me; huh, again?
Anthea: Yeah, on the count of three, we put down the phone
Me; Okay
"1"
"2"
"3" *hang up*

-end-

Me: Still laughing. Its been a few minutes now.

-Twenty Second Blood Butterfly -

Depressed.

Depressed. Depressed.Depressed. Depressed.Depressed. Depressed.Depressed. Depressed.Depressed.

Tired. Sleepy.

I come online and I did the shittyiest thing in my life. I just insulted someone's religion. I mean, yeah. Omg. What the hell is up with me. And you know, i just noticed it was unintentional. and this someone just came up to tell me I'm pulling that person down, BUT WELL I'M SORRY. And then there was another arguement. And then shit happens.
My online siblings and uncle started an argument and I was USELESS. I SWEAR, USELESS. But hey, not only was I useless, I MADE THINGS WORSE.
WELL SHIT, I'M SORRY FOR BEING WEAK. Thanks ALOT for understanding.

I don't know, I'm just not me anymore. Its screaming in me. I'm not me. I don't understand why. And its not helping me at all. My phantom limbs are just ACHING everytimes I have clothes on. T_T; As if my emotionally being isn't in pain enough, this has to happen.

I'm hiding too much of me. It's hidden that I myself can't see it. It has dissolved. Gone. No more. I don't even know sometimes who the fuck i am. Its VERY frustating, you know. Its like. I'm me, but not me. Its like. Ah shit, I don't know. I'm not me anymore. I just know how to make people think of me because of what I do. I do know the things humans want to see in a specific situations and the specific reactions they want to have. Its completely not hard at all. But I love to twist the situation to see new reactions. Maybe I'm still learning. But I don't get it. Now that's my hobby. Just to twist the simple reactions- or untwist it for humans to see it primitively.

Psychology is a wonderful subject. And the human mind is actually only that narrow. But its a dangerous thing. I twist it so much just for a test for them. But when i don't get the results I want,

I just end up hurting me.

- Twenty-first Blood Butterfly -

Title: Child of Festives

Full Name: Kamikawa Kyuu

Aliases: Q

.:: Q is simply the short form for 'Quintessence' but pronounced and written as "Kyuu" ::

Gender: Female

Species: Zashikiwarashi

About her Species: Zashiki-warashi

Reference from http://www.obakemono.com/

This child-like spirit is said to inhabit the inner rooms of old houses and other buildings. It often appears as a little girl but it can be a boy as well. Sometimes it plays with the children of the house, but it never lets the adults see it. Although it is fond of mischief, the zashiki-warashi is a beneficial little spook, and houses it lives in have extremely good fortune. This fortune quickly turns to disastrously bad luck, however, if the ghost child ever leaves.

Reference from xxxHolic

-weak against ill

-will and malice

-doesn't really go to places with much humans.

-usually retreats with the Karasu-Tengu to the sacred grounds of the mountains.

Age: Roughly about 68 but looks 8.

Height: 122 cm [ 4" ]

Weight: 20kg [45lbs]

Hair: Maroon-ish brown

Eyes: maroon-ish brown

Before Kamikawa Kyuu was Kyuu:
Kyuu was once a child named Midorikawa Chiaki who was born into a very fine and decent family. Chiaki had the ability to see the supernatural and was capable of having fine games of snowball fights or even a decent conversation with them. The most she ever hang out with were the Karasu-tengu, the crow tengus. Especially the few that live just outside her window. However, compared to the other children, she was still unable to speak at the age of 4. Inclusive to her deficiencies, she is also unable to walk.

On her Death date:
Chiaki died on the 8th of August, one of the 12 days that the Hitotsune-kozo came to visit her house to play. The child kindly "asked" the supernatural being to give her an illness that could result in death for she had seen enough of the hardships that the Midorikawa family has been suffering though her lack of capabilities. On the other hand, the Hitotsune-kozo was quite elated for they know her death could result in her turning into a Zashiki-warashi. Hito-dama appeared as her death time came. And soon, she found herself together once again with the other supernatural beings.

About species: Hitotsume-kozo

In form this spectre is a child of ten years or so, usually a bald-headed young Buddhist monk, but its face is dominated by its one huge eye. Like many obake who are largely human in appearance, the hitotsume-koz? enjoys using its monstrous attributes to surprise and frighten people, and loves sassing the humans it meets, telling them to "be quiet!" or greeting them with other childish chides and mockery.
Sometimes said to be spirits of disease that appear on the eighth of the month, the one-eyed boys can be repelled by hanging baskets in doorways; the cycloptic little monsters see the basket's many holes as a vast amount of eyes, and run away in jealousy, ashamed of only having one.

About species: Hito-dama

The spirits of the newly dead are said to take the form of great floating balls of fire, glowing in amber, pale blue or ruddy-white like the moon, sometimes dragging long blue flickering tails behind them. A hito-dama is often seen shortly before a sick person dies, leaving the weakening body and heading off for the next stage of existence. They often fall to earth or fade away shortly after they are seen, leaving a foamy or slimy residue on whatever they touch.

After that...:
Kyuu immediately left her home where she died and wandered around than compared to the many Zashiki-warashi that stayed in one home. She mostly follows the few supernatural beings that also wanders and has communicated with her one way or another. However, it is the Karasu-tengu that follows her all the time no matter where she goes. Eveutally, she gathers a small group with her as she goes.